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For Today 8/14

Envy is one form of a vice, partly moral, partly intellectual, which consists in seeing things never in themselves, but only in their relations.

Bertrand Russell

Looking at another’s program and achievements is another way I have of putting myself down. "Why can’t you do better? What’s the matter with you? I wish I were….." The OA program is not a competitive sport, nor is my Higher Power a referee. With envy as a defect, I do not have to look far to find that I am making unreasonable demands on myself.

I know that what relieves me of the compulsion to overeat can also relieve me of other defects. I need only to practice the steps – all of them – and turn my life over to my Higher Power on a daily basis. I don’t need to be perfect at any of this; I just need to be myself.

For today: To free myself of envy, I can start by looking to see how it is hurting me.